Even with all the unknowns regarding the boy's health, Greg was at peace with our decision to travel to Russia to meet the boys. On March 12, 2007, once again in Greg's morning devotional, God seemed to give peace to Greg using His Word.... "They will lay hands on the sick and they will recover." Mark 16:18. This encouraged Greg to travel and meet the boys and to pray with them and for them.
Before we started the adoption process, I still had a heavy heart about not being able to have an infant. I wasn't necessarily grieving over the infertility, but over the fact that I wouldn't have a baby. So, I had been praying that God would allow us to have two children, under two years old. I was pretty much praying for the impossible. We had requested two children, under 4 years old, either gender. Though I was willing to accept God's provision and the children He had for us, in my heart I was hoping for two younger children. So, part of Greg's peace was knowing that God had answered the heart's desire of his wife. With all of the grief that I had experienced over the infertility, allowing us to have two childen, under two was a sweet gift from God....a healing balm for me.
So, we made plans to travel. On April 13th, 2007, we would board an airplane from JFK to Moscow, Russia.
Now, I have to be honest. I was scared to death to travel internationally. I had never been out of the country, and from the moment we decided to adopt from Russia, my #1 fear was the traveling. I know that sounds silly; there were so many other things that I could have feared. But I would wake up in the middle of the night with paralyzing feelings of fear. Every horrible thing that could go wrong while traveling went through my mind. It was one of the things that I had to work hard at giving over to the Lord.
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