Thoughts on Mother's Day

I saw this video on another woman's blog last week.  It is not necessarily based on a Christian worldview, but the video gave an honest heart's response to infertility.  While I watched it, it brought tears to my eyes. 
Now, I should mention that tears are a way of life for me.  I cry when I'm happy; I cry when I'm sad; I cry when I see or hear something that touches my heart.  So, I probably mention often that I have tears in my eyes.  Don't be alarmed...Its just me. 

The tears were for the sadness that I felt so deeply while struggling with infertility.
They were for the happiness that I feel now, being a Mom to these beautiful boys.
They were for the great expectation of being a Mom again to two little ones, whom I have yet to meet.  And the tears were for the sadness of knowing that there are birth moms that will miss the smiles that my children give to me. 
And then as I think of Mother's Day, though it is now a joyous day for celebration in our home, I remember that there was a time when the pain of infertility was compounded on this one day of the year.  So many women suffer with this grief, and I do not forget their sorrow, for once upon a time I was one of them.  This Mother's Day, as I thank the LORD for His good gifts to me, my children, I also remember those who still suffer and pray for them. 
And finally, I remember the millions of children who suffer as well because they have no mother, and today I most certainly pray for them!

So, this Mother's Day, I want to thank God for what he brought me through and where He has me now...being a Mom to my Jachin and my Josiah. Every single night before bed I tell them the same thing, "I love you. You are my precious gift from God."

(I want to be perfectly clear that I would no longer "die for" pregnancy.  I LOVE the road that God has taken us on to our sweet children, and I wouldn't trade this journey for anything.  The children that God brought to us are exactly the children that we were meant to love and parent.  They are NOT second best.  They are my heart, and were God's heart the whole time.  They are simply OURS....our OWN children.)